Can we even make it to church?

It's been 3 weeks since I've been to church. It bothers me I can't take communion with this disease since September, but it's even harder when you physically can't go. I've been feeling awful all morning and am laying in bed with a heating pad in tears while Drew sleeps and Adam cares for Lucy. Yet another day no yard work is getting done and we need it. I've been in the bathroom almost all Morning. I ate the same foods, took my anxiety meds and still had problems. I know I'm starting to worry about the Zoloft working, the diarrhea all morning every day even on this limited diet, no appetite, and my parents health. I pray that God heard me. I beg him for things to get better for our family and me. All sorts of changes are going on at work and that worries me too - will I even have a job at the end of this? I get lovely cards and emails from so many praying, but here I am. I beg God to have mercy on me, and help me through these difficult times. Depending on what happens with mom's hearing and sinuses and dads wrist, we may need to care for them and the kids. That was to be MY job. I need Gods help to get through this and pray that things will soon get better.