Saturday

Yesterday was a long day; I pushed a bit too hard. It's nice feeling the energy from the nutrients but I'm really still managing the effects of the meds and always feel tired. It helps focusing in the kids, but is easy to forget how much you've done before you've overdone it. Both these kids have serious energy.

Drew has been very needy lately and is fine with me but screams with Daddy. I wish it wasn't like that, but at least I know if I take care of him the tantrums go away. I may stay home some of this week, as I think me being at mom and dads can be more disruptive to the routine. We had bagel dogs for dinner last night; Adam came home sick and I figured drew would at least eat it. We played then had him in bed after major tantrums by 8ish. Lucy then ate and played for another 45 min; we went to bed by 9:30. I was too tired to even shower.

I am up every hour; not sure why, but my numbness and achiness kept me up. Third day at 30 mgs; we drop again potentially next Thursday. With the cold and infection, and me trying to do more, I wear out fast. But each day is better. I took care of the kids this morning when Adam went to get groceries and get his haircut. I told him to go as Lucy just went down and I could manage drew. Sure enough, 5 minutes layer Lucy is up. That baby wont sleep! She was down at 8:46pm last night and slept till 3:30. We tried ignoring her, then pacifying her - nothing. Needs the bottle and falls back asleep. Up again at 6:30 so Adam brought her to our bed and we played and napped until 8:30 when drew got up (his cold has wore him down so we figured it was best to let him wake up naturally).

We hope to go to 4pm mass with mom, dad, and Dave then out to dinner. Mom, Lucy and I can't eat, so it's cheap to go out :) I'm anxious about doing my hair, so I'll just have to pace myself to make it there. I think my expectations outweigh what I should make as goals for myself. My hands are very shaky as are my legs; I think that's the worst. I'm excited to be improving every day.

Tomorrow is rest at home; the rest of the week is dr visits (northwestern all day Thursday). Im glad not to have to worry about work right now; but it'll be nice to get back to my old life again. Just focused on health and family for now, and that's plenty :)