It is wonderful to be home. Adam brought the kids home last night, and Drew ran over to me to give me a hug. I just couldn't help crying. I just held him until he got tired of it :) I picked up Lucy and held her for the longest I have in 27 days. I just sat on the couch while Drew showed me how well he could put his Andrew name puzzle together, saying what each letter was and where it went on the board. It's amazing how many things he is learning so quickly now. I can't believe he's 21 months already. Lucy sat on my lap and watched, as daddy got dinner ready (thanks to Grandma for making a meal for Drew/Daddy)!
Drew was really distracted all night with me being home. It made the formula dinner easier to digest focusing on him and Lucy at the dinner table. Every time I left the room to go to the restroom (stupid c-diff!!!!), he would act out until I came back. I felt bad for Adam having to deal with him, but as soon as I came back, he was good. It was nice to know that he missed me. I played with Drew on the floor after dinner, between bathroom breaks, and got him ready for bed. I was exhausted after that, and Adam took care of Lucy and cleaning our formula bottles while I laid in bed and zoned out. We went to sleep at 10. It was a long night - the steroids make me feel very weird and shakey and cold, and the place where my IVs have been throbbed - but it was still so nice to be home in my own bed. My mom had come over and put mums and pumpkins on our porch, cleaned the bathrooms, and had a little singing bear for me on my bedside. It felt so good to be home.
This morning I am tracking down my formula order (this Apria stuff is very frustrating). I don't feel like I can rest until I know if the delivery is coming today, tomorrow, ever? They're trying to track it down. I also have to call the pharmacy as my prescriptions are all overlapping with so many hospital visits and quantities changing. My mom plans to come over with Lucy to watch me, bring me some more meds and some ginger ale from CVS. Hopefully that'll allow me to rest more, not having to be ready to jump up if this delivery comes.
The pills/formula are making me pretty uncomfortable this morning - the hot flashes, racing pulse, upset stomach; I'm just sitting on the couch taking things literally 1 hour at a time. I'm glad I have the day off of work to just recoup a bit. I'm not even going to login. I'm sure every day will get better, and I'm looking forward to life getting back to "normal" even if I don't eat for a while. I think routine is good for the kids, but good for mommy/daddy too.
Reeses will be over later today when Kathleen drops him off. It'll be nice to see him, although I think he's getting more attention there with the two puppies than over here, where he ranks #3. He should be fully bathed, and I'm looking forward to cuddling with him. I may even let him lick my face (that's a big no-no for me!) :)
Adam's back at work; the kids are at mom and dad's for today's daycare (until Mom comes over with Lucy); and I can rest. It's so special to be back home. Today's Adam/my 8 year wedding anniversary. It's hard to believe it's been that long. We've made it through some really good and really bad times, and have been together over 14 years now. He was a wonderful choice as a husband, and continues to prove his love for me at times like this. I've been very blessed.
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